So, we’re down to just two things left to be ready to adopt: the DHEC inspection and the homestudy with the counselor person.
Then, I don’t really know what happens. Someone will call, I suppose, and tell us about some child(ren) who may be a good fit for us, and then we’ll decide whether or not to move forward.
As I think about this, all my mind comes up with is a bunch of whens:
- When will we finally be done with all this paperwork and stuff?
- When will the call come in?
- When will we be ready for the kid(s) to come to our home?
The biggest “whens” for me though is when will I feel like a “real” parent (I already have two stepchildren, so even though most people don’t consider me to be a parent, I feel like one most of the time), and “when will I finally stop thinking about getting pregnant”? That last one has been bothering me a little bit lately, not like I’m sad about not getting pregnant, but just I’m wondering when I’ll stop worrying about/thinking about it. I would like to finally accept, really accept, that it’s not going to happen.