I have a dilemma, in the true sense of that word. Let me explain:
1. My psoriasis has gone CRAZY during this dissertation writing. I’m not sleeping enough. I eat whatever someone hands me or that I can find and is easy to pop in my mouth. I crave cheese every minute of the day (oxytocin or whatever it is that cheese releases in your brain… yeah, I want it). My idea of exercise is lifting books and carrying my laptop around. So, crazy skin, with lots of flaking and itching (and scratching! big no, no).
2. Because of my crazy skin, my doc wants to add in another medication to my Humira. This one is another immune suppressant. It’s supposed to work pretty well. But, I don’t like the idea of it – 3 pills a day? What a nightmare.
3. He knows that I tried to get pregnant — IVF and all — and I told him yesterday that I am no longer trying to get pregnant.
4. The new medicine is Category D (as in NOT FOR PREGNANT PEOPLE).
Here’s the dilemma: Should I just get on birth control and start the new medication? Just give up entirely on any notion that I might “accidentally” get pregnant? That I can even have a hope of it anyway? I think this would be easier if we had already gone through all the adoption stuff and been approved. Then, I’d know that the right choice is to just start the meds and the BC because my children will come live with us soon enough. Right now, though, I feel like I’m in purgatory, with no clear sense of where I’m going next.
I’m so not sure what to do. I haven’t even talked to DH yet about it. Right now, I’m just going to finish up my dissertation, then try to figure this out. Any advice you guys have is much needed though.