Okay, so I’ve blogged (countless times) before about weight and health. I hear people say things about weight being a “constant battle,” and though it sounds like hyperbole, I think it’s maybe more true that I’d like for it to be.
I remember a time, long, long ago, when I didn’t really think about weight. I was slightly bigger than other girls my age, but I liked the way I looked and I was in the healthy range, so whatevs. That all changed about 7 or 8 years ago when I gained about 40 pounds (after doing the Atkins diet as a kind of a personal challenge, not so much for weight loss). Now, there’s a good bit of that (and more) that I feel so frustrated by. The funny (not funny) thing is that ever since then, I’m way more health conscious. In my early 20s, I literally survived on Frui.t Loops, baked potatoes, noodles with zucchinni, and cheese sandwiches for WEEKS at a time. That was my entire diet. I didn’t drink tea or worry about refined sugar. I only ate beans that had been covered with cheese and cooked into a mushy paste. Nuts? You gotta be kidding. Only if they were cooked into a pecan pie. I always loved vegetables…but I used to think that the more butter that I put on them, the better they were.
Now, it’s so different. I can’t even imagine how much I’d weigh if I still ate like that. I walk and work out now. I eat healthy foods 80% of the time, and feel really guilty about that other 20% most of the time. I’ve lost a little bit of weight since Jan (15-20 pounds, depending on what time of the month it is — I bloat a lot near my period). I’m down from a size 14 to a comfortable size 12 and a sometimes if I don’t mind it being a little tight 10. I WANT to be a size 6-8 though.
So, the battle rages on — this month, my new weapon is WHOLE FOODS. With every meal, I have to eat things that are not processed at all, and I have to eat big portions of them. So, lots of fresh greens and fresh vegetables and fruits. I also am drinking tons and tons of water and only tea and coffee (except that one Coke Zero I had yesterday). I’m also walking or going to the gym every day. I’m not as good as Belle and her folks on their detox (no caffeine, what! I did that for IVF and I’m SO OVER IT!)
We’ll see how that fat on my thighs likes these apples (and cherries and cucumbers and sweet potatoes)!