So, I haven’t been very bloggery lately. I’ve been checking in, mostly to see what’s going on with my bloggy friends and was stunned and devastated by Belle’s news. Dammit, the world just seems so unfair sometimes. What a difference a day can make. What an awful thing for my blog friend to have to go through. I hope she can stay focused and make it through, just one day at a time, remembering that this day will be over and the next will come and eventually this day will just be a memory, one that’s a stark contrast to the other beautiful days to come.
I saw a lady today with a baby in a stroller. The baby was WAILING, she was texting. I’m not judging her. She might have been texting with her mom about the best way to stop a baby from crying (she looked about 17 years old, 20 tops). But, when I saw her and heard that baby, I wanted to go pick that little ole thing up and help it feel better. ( Again, I’m sure she did too, and I don’t know her situation, so please don’t misinterpret. I’m also not a baby stealer, just in case you were going there….)
I think about the world sometimes and realize how much a day matters. How much can change in just a single day. When we went to the RE and heard, in no uncertain terms, that our chances for US, as in me and DH, to have a baby that was created by US were slim to none, well that day changed a lot, for me, for how I see myself, for how I think of my future.
Since that day, I see so much differently. I still very much want to be a mother and I know that one day I will be. One day, I’ll be not a mom, then the next day, I will be. I don’t know what exactly will happen between now and that day, but I know that day is coming. DH (I wish I had a clever name for him) and I will figure all of this out and we will make it happen. One day.
Today, though, I’ve spent time focusing on my dogs, my students, my stepkids, my husband, my home and myself. We’re planning a few trips coming up and those days will be wonderful.
Today, I will focus on that one day and try to remember what a difference (in a good way) a day can make.