Well, it’s the first day of the 11th cycle that we’ve been trying to make a baby. I was thinking about this phrase on the way home — make a baby. When I think about my future and our children, I have a hard time envisioning the baby part. I’m always imagining a 4 year old, a teenager, and sometimes even older. The baby part doesn’t really figure into my imagination much, except when I’m thinking of what we need to do once things actually get going. I don’t know why. I think maybe I don’t let myself think about the baby since I can’t seem to make one so far.
If I get pregnant this month, the baby will be due Mid-May. My sister was born in May. Maybe I’m like my mom and have to have my first child in May.
I am not as sad this month as I have been in the past, but that’s not saying much because I am pretty sad.